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Wednesday, December 18, 2019

A Poem After a Long Time

Do you remember the months after
we went to Canada when we argued
again and you broke things off? I
think it was shortly after I invited you
to the Grand Canyon and you 
criticized my friends. People our age 
can be stupid like that, selfish, it was 
my fault I think for not giving you space, 
but by that point the cycle kept repeating 
itself and I liked you so much. My head 
told me not to expect too much because
even though you liked me for a long time 
before I liked you, every time I gave you 
too much trouble your toes grazed the 
landing. It was my fault for capturing
you after the house warming party. Even 
though my head told me that we weren't
compatible, that it would never work out and
end too soon, hearts would be broken, pain
and trauma seared, and the tangles in my mind
couldn't easily be braided, a worked up heart
once again overrode it's brain. I touched your 
arm and asked if we were okay, and for 
the final time you said we were

In my head we fell in love around Christmas, 
you're better than you think you are~